When I got to work this morning, I got a Ham and Cheddar Omelette and a cup of coffee. At my desk, I added some low carb sweetener and a BulletProof InstaPack to make my Bulletproof Coffee. If you look at the My Fitness Pal (MFP) screenshot, you’d only see the omelette because the coffee tasted awful; I took maybe 5 sips while eating and just couldn’t do it. Since I got it from the cafeteria at work, they’re not exactly listed in MFP so I found the best match, which came in at 4 carbs. That’s the hard thing about eating “out”, if I didn’t make it, it’s hard to know what went in it.
I worked from home yesterday but at work they had a holiday party for the whole office (the one we had Wed. was just for our division). I didn’t want to pay $20 to go in on my days to work from home for a bunch of food I probably couldn’t eat. Well, I was right on that last count as there was a ton left over and they put it out today. The only thing I could have (among the wings and meatballs with sauce, cucumbers with tuna salad, and at least 8 different cakes) were these sandwiches, if I just ate the middle without the bread. Technically, the cucumbers with tuna salad were probably low carb but I don’t like cucumber and the sauce on the wings and meatballs likely had added sugar. So lunchmeat with a tiny bit of lettuce and tiny piece of cheese were my lunch; I was still full from the omelette so that was okay. Again, not making it I don’t know what went into it so I picked the best matches I could find and came out around 3 carbs.
By mid-afternoon, all the cakes and cookies and candies and cupcakes were getting to me. I ate the string cheese I had brought and then broke down and had half of a Lily’s chocolate bar, which is one serving. The Lily’s are sweetened with Stevia so they are fairly low carb. The two together came to 4 carbs (1 from the cheese and 3 from chocolate).
Leaving work my downfall began. There was still some perishable food (the meats) and I was told to bring it home for my brother. I condensed the cake into one container to leave there in the fridge and one little chunk of chocolate fell off. Before I could even reason with myself, I popped it in my mouth and it was sooooo good. I got it all put away and brought home the meats.
I stopped at Home Depot and Taco Casa is in their parking lot so I got a Taco Salad and 2 bean burritos, one for me and one for my brother, since I had all that other food for him. I got home and just had the salad, without the shell, all good. That sweet tooth kicked in so I ate about 4 of the Avalanche cookies I had made, as I’d had to take them out to make room for the new foods. Once my brother got up (he works nights) and was eating his bean burrito, I had to have that other one. That of course turned out to be my highest carb item of the day. So my dinner carbs came out to 56, 46 of which are from the burrito. Eleven of those carbs are fiber, which brings the net down to 35 but that’s still a lot higher than I should be. Also, my Taco Salad (without shell) comes in at 10 carbs but that’s with beans which I had left off, so the salad should be significantly less than 10 carbs as well.
I already discussed the snacks above. Here I’ll note that they came to 38 total carbs (afternoon and evening snacks together) and about 10 of those were fiber, so they were around 28 total carbs, 15 from the chocolate cake and 18 (10 net) from the Avalanche cookies.
Today was a perfect illustration of why I abstain from carbs altogether as it only takes a little to trigger a lot, especially when you struggle with self control anyway, like I do. They say each person has a certain amount of control in them and it can be used up through the day, which is why we so often give into cravings at night, there’s just no resistance left. I’ve been resisting cake and desserts and bread really hard this week, with the Wed. party and then it being everywhere today and I just ran out. An impulse decision to have a little taste just became a whole chain of “oh, well”. I wish I’d looked up the cake earlier to see that such a little piece didn’t really do that much damage and I may have skipped the burrito, which did much more damage.
Tomorrow is a new day and I can start over. Having eaten so many carbs today, I’ve likely been bumped out of ketosis (where your body is burning fat for energy instead of using your food) so will work tomorrow to get back in it, meaning pickle and some eggs (not together). I also have both of my finals to do tomorrow so that will be a majority of my day.